Confessions of a Single Parent (Actress)

The audition hamster wheel can make you forget what you should be grateful for moment to moment. In a world that is centered on everything that is not important, it is easy to get selfish and let your ego dictate your perception. I just had a drink and a great conversation with a friend who reminded me that this constant practice can have one circling the drain if not careful. We spoke about the 4 agreements.  Be Impeccable with your Word Don't Take anything Personally Don't Make Assumptions Always Do your Best Now these may seem like easy and common sense things to do. But, when you are carrying fear and trauma that can be triggered at any moment, they are easier to read than to actually manifest. They are the mantra, I live by but I am also human and fall short at times. That is why the final agreement is sooo important. It is a restart. A reset button that reminds us that we have tomorrow or even the next hour to do better.  Another thing to add to that list ...

This audition season had been filled with dashed hopes. More high level opportunities and great scripts. Fewer yesses! Lots of No's. Now this business is filled with rejection. Our sole job is to walk into a room and give our best 1-3 minute performance. Our job is to make decisions and provide an authentic person. Our job is to stay fresh and relevant in our craft. Then we leave the room and have a celebratory meal and push the experience out of our mind and psyche, which is easier said than done. And usually, I am up to the task, but this audition season, I nearly wanted to take my ball home and never audition again. Many of my friends are no longer in this business. Many are exhausted of the season of No and have embarked in work that will provide more regular pay. Some have translated their love into producing, writing, directing, and more. Others have turned their season of No into a world of Yes. I will admit that I am still trying to figure it out. Last season, I produced,...