Grateful and Fear

The audition hamster wheel can make you forget what you should be grateful for moment to moment. In a world that is centered on everything that is not important, it is easy to get selfish and let your ego dictate your perception. I just had a drink and a great conversation with a friend who reminded me that this constant practice can have one circling the drain if not careful. We spoke about the 4 agreements. 

• Be Impeccable with your Word
• Don't Take anything Personally
• Don't Make Assumptions
• Always Do your Best

Now these may seem like easy and common sense things to do. But, when you are carrying fear and trauma that can be triggered at any moment, they are easier to read than to actually manifest. They are the mantra, I live by but I am also human and fall short at times. That is why the final agreement is sooo important. It is a restart. A reset button that reminds us that we have tomorrow or even the next hour to do better. 

Another thing to add to that list is to stop comparing yourself to others. Stop wanting to live someone else's life. You never know what is behind the curtain and it is always better to stay in your lane. Your journey is yours. And there are moments that you intermingle with others but the outcome is always yours and yours to live with. And stop waiting for the calm in the storm to find joy. Life is filled with chaos, and crazy. If you wait for just the right moment to be happy, you will be waiting and it may never come. And learning how to find your happy in the midst of whatever is a great practice. It allows you to face your fears and trauma head on. Until they trigger you less and less. 

This day was promised to no one. Stop acting as if you always have a chance to start living. Before you know it, you will be 6 feet under surrounded by your regrets. It is better to try than to be immobilized by worry or fear. I think that many of us think that fear will go away. That could not be further from the truth. For me, fear and faith exist together. One keeps me moving past to the next step, and the other reminds me of how far I have come and makes me determined to keep going.