The season of NO

This audition season had been filled with dashed hopes. More high level opportunities and great scripts. Fewer yesses! Lots of No's. Now this business is filled with rejection. Our sole job is to walk into a room and give our best 1-3 minute performance. Our job is to make decisions and provide an authentic person. Our job is to stay fresh and relevant in our craft. Then we leave the room and have a celebratory meal and push the experience out of our mind and psyche, which is easier said than done. And usually, I am up to the task, but this audition season, I nearly wanted to take my ball home and never audition again.

Many of my friends are no longer in this business. Many are exhausted of the season of No and have embarked in work that will provide more regular pay. Some have translated their love into producing, writing, directing, and more. Others have turned their season of No into a world of Yes. I will admit that I am still trying to figure it out. Last season, I produced, directed, wrote, and performed in some great projects. It was empowering to work behind and in front of the camera.

As I write, I may be getting closer to the answer. In fact, the answer has been here all along. This was the first year that I placed everything in the hands of someone else. It was the first time that I placed my joy in the hands of the audition hamster wheel. And that is no way to survive this. In fact, it is an easy way to the exit sign if you are not careful.

So today, I promise to stay on the path by placing my faith in me and trusting in God. And this week I will perform in a fun fundraising concert and I will start a new show in Aspen, Colorado because even in the Season of No, there are always a few Yes's.