This dating life....

As a single parent actress, dating and being in a relationship are something that I dabble in every now and then. At times, you meet a person who really excites you and then you quickly realize it was all potential and very little reality in the picture. There are other moments that someone sweeps you off your feet and treats you like a partner just to drift away or even worse rob you blind of your sanity and funds, which at first you were sharing equally (funny how that quickly turns around).  Then there are times that someone re-enters your life with a promise and a dream, but they are not quite in the position to make it a reality. Yet, when you are bright enough to realize that and break it off or simply return to the friendship zone, you are cut off.  And all of this makes me simply want to leave dating and relationships alone because it is exhausting trying to take care of someone's feelings when they don't actually give a rats ass about yours.

Now this may sound like some bitter rant, but it is not. It is simply an observation. An observation collected from much experience, good and bad. Because let's face it even the good ones only lasted for a few years and ended badly or neutrally. I sit with successful couples and often notice how they communicate, how they take care of each other, or simply how they simply aware of what makes the other person tick. They have vested time in knowing and that is why they are still together even through the storms. Because it is through the storm, that reveals a person's truth, their purpose, their actual reason for being with the other person in the first place.

And being independent is overrated because I swear that potential suitors take that as a sign that you don't need or desire anything. I am also not interested in any projects. I am interested in supporting your ideas and plans, but not being the one to make them come to fruition.  And I am concerned, when you are not quite sure what you want to be when you grow up and you are already 40 or 50. 

And when you have a child or children, you have already been to the circus and back. So there is no need for pretense or fairy tail myths. You are ready to deal in reality. Just not one where I am at the bottom of the pile or someone you are just seeing for now. So if you want to step to me or you see me running in the opposite direction, just know that I have seen your truth, and I am certain that I don't want any part of it. But, I am always willing to take a chance. Because, the shenanigans that usually follows always make great material for the stage or screen.