Take a Leap of Faith or else

There are times as artists we are challenged to take a leap of faith. Now you may say, anyone who chooses to pursue this crazy life with no security, pension, feedback, and lots of stress must already be ready to take a leap. But there are moments when life happens.

There are moments when an avalanche of chaos falls all over you and you cannot simply see past the obstacles and the shit. You are so blinded by disappointment and despair that you simply want to go back to sleep and pretend that you will wake up to a better life. And then you wake up to even more stuff. If you are as single parent like me, this stuff can come in the form of believing that you are dragging your children or child into this unknown artist life without any safety net and then you are instantly overcome with shame and guilt. Or even worse you are surrounded by the unwelcome death of a loved one. Then the questions and worry start. Maybe you should go back to that dead end job? Maybe you should apply for something more steady? Maybe you should simply stop since life continues to throw you lemons? Maybe you should stop living your life as you continue to mourn? Maybe you should simply go to sleep?

The only problem with this thinking is that it emanates from pure and unadulterated fear. And guess what?! We are surrounded by scared folks. And they can be contagious if you are not careful. They can make you forget the joy of auditions and getting that phone call for that awesome job. They can make you forget the amazing journey that has been filled with more lessons than curses. They can make me forget that my sheer dedication to this life is one of the best lessons for my daughter. Regardless of my miniscule savings. And those who we have lost would not want us wasting away and forgo our dreams and aspirations.

I am taking a new leap of faith into writing and creating. I refuse to be limited by my surroundings and by fear. My belief in God cannot exist with fear and uncertainty. And whatever you believe in, you should probably check your own fear odometer. If your days are filled with you never moving forward or simply sleeping until you arrive at that dead end job that not only barely fills your bank account, but even worse does not fill your soul or bring your joy.Then that is a signal to end the insanity and to simply step away and step into something better.

We all deserve the best that life has to offer, and we deserve to receive what is meant and designed specifically for us. So stop looking across the street wishing that you had what they had. Stop waiting for that magical lottery win. Wish and pray for what should and can be yours and watch the doors open wide and all obstacles move out of your way.