This is not my typical end of the year reflection, nor is it my typical “my goals and aspirations list” either. It is simply a statement that I believe needs to be read by somebody. Especially because I know someone needs to hear this.
Lately, it has become difficult to breathe. Difficult to process clarity. And I have started to realize that it is because I let too many people in to my emotional and spiritual vibrations due to my work and kindness, but lately I have not downloaded or dumped all of the trash. And my lesson for 2020 is to be better about cleaning my soul and spirit. This also includes being honest in the moment and not holding onto things to fester. Or even better not worrying or giving time to problems that are actually not even mine.
Second, I need to make sure that I maintain my positive energy with consistent self-care. This includes me taking care of me, which I also forgot about in 2019. So make sure that you take care of your body, mind, and soul.
Next, the world is chock full of selfish destructive assholes who are often filled with jealous and self hate. So they disguise themselves as co-conspirators and allies, and wreck havoc on your life and more importantly your work. So I am saying here that I know who you are and I am ignoring you on purpose. Thanks.
I am also thankful for being heard when I asked for help. This is a reminder that we should never silence our pain nor should we pretend that it will simply go away. It is okay to ask your village for help. And for you to pay it forward and be a help to others. It is also a reminder that I never need to hold onto assholes when I have so many beautiful authentic friends that I love and adore. Thank you for the constant love and hugs.
My daughter continues to remind me that each lesson that I just mentioned above are the same ones I taught her. And only these steps towards my sanity will help me breathe again.
So let me repeat the list for me and for you:
- Don’t honor or practice dishonesty
- Self care
- All 4 agreements all the time (read the book and then repeat)
- Stop protecting assholes with your undeserved kindness
- Love yourself as you rediscover clarity
Happy 2020! Kick ass! And don’t drag anyone with you who doesn’t deserve to be there with you or else….
I feel this on a spiritual level. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing!
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ReplyDeleteGetting away from assholes is always a good thing, as is self care. Nice piece, Sis. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing yourself you are such a voice and I am proud to call you friend. I am definitely learning to heed that part about assholes and self care starting this year. I’m starting to listen to me more.��
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